Food as Fuel NOT Entertainment

Food as Fuel NOT Entertainment was the title for today's SparkPeople newsletter. I swear those things flooding my inbox makes me honest. The mistake I have made lately is lusting after food instead of being practical. I have been eating things that are sinful and delicious because everyone else is eating it. But I know I can still have fun at a dinner table, on a boat with friends etc. without eating the crap everyone else is eating. I got cocky and confident about my body. I'm just afraid I wont be able to wear Leah's clothes anymore and giggle because they actually go down over my massive upper body.

I have been feeling droopy, Gumby-like (my favorite super hero by the way) lately because I have not been doing weight training like I was before. I have kept up with my running- only three workouts all week last week. But no Jillian. Jillian kept me honest, too. I have to just ice my knees and go for Jillian two or three times per week, the rest of the time I'll run. I need to be more strict about working out and find time to do it. I could have ran yesterday but I found myself going back to ALL my old excuses; Brian's here and I want to hang out, I don't want to get my hair dirty and there's no time to shower, it's late and I'm tired, it's early and I don't want to wake people up... bla bla. Looking back, they sound so redic. and I know it. Just excuses. Today I have no excuse. Lindsey's excuse for today is shin splints. I have never had shin splints but I hear they are killer. So she can't go running with me. When I get off work, I'm going to go running and do a video. I have nothing else to do tonight except for maybe clean the house but I can do that here and there.

Mom I am so proud of your dedication. You really motivate me to be aware and keep active. I'm sorry you were sick this weekend. It was sad. But hey, 48 lbs is a bright side! Most people veg out after they threw up for a day and gain it all back, so way to stick with the low calories. Two more pounds is NOTHING! You can totally make it by this weeken.

I have a wedding to go to Sunday and I'm wearing the silk purple dress from The Limited. I'm so excited to wear it! I'm gonna feel like a princess. I love weddings, too. It's so fun to drink and dance to love songs :). So Mom and the dress are my motivation for this week. I really want to focus on my arms, shoulders and chest because those areas are unforgiving in pictures when you're wearing a strapless dress. Yikes! I think I'll flip to the back of Jillian's book and do the last minute quick weight loss techniques. Leah's I know is not eating for two days, haha. I may make it through like the first half day on that plan and then buckle. She is stronger than I.

Oh, another motivation: Brandice in a swimsuit. Dang it. I don't know if y'all saw her new profile pic, but yea she's skinny. And now we're all going to the river in three(ish) weeks. The river. Where you have to wiggle, go up and down, bending in all directions all while in a swim suit. Ugh. And I don't want to be the fat girlfriend in front of the family. So I must be skinny by Father's Day. It can be done! My goal is 5-8 lbs. So like 2 per week and crash diet the last couple of days. Yes, sounds good. On top of kick ass work outs leading up to the event.

Today I'll go home and eat can of soup for lunch because I think that's all we have left in the fridge. We're seriously on empty so I can't wait to get paid again. Maybe I wont be able to eat for a couple of days, haha.

Good luck on the last two lbs. I'd really like to see Leah back on here... sigh*