Now's a Good Time to Post

I'm down now 48 lbs. Two lbs ahead of plan but I did it the HARD way with food poisoning. It's true when you don't eat you lose weight - go figure. I'm going to take advantage of my headstart into next week and continue to journal. I needed this little reminder that it's WHAT I eat and HOW much of what I ate that got me this way. I know I can't eat one can of soup or one baked potato a day for the rest of my life but in reality, I don't need to eat too much more than that. As a matter of fact, I've been perfectly fine all day on a bowl of chicken noodle soup and a can of sprite. I've even had enough energy to clean out the refrigerator, tons of laundry, tackle Leah's room and my room. I am starting to feel a little listless now; it's about 9:00 PM. I think I'll try one more bowl of soup and THAT'S IT.

I'm so close to my big 50 lbs goal. I'll be dancing and singing when I hit that number. You can't imagine what a huge milestone that is for me.

So, I need my team - mother daughter team - to help me through to this huge milestone.

I know we all slacked a bit, but the best thing is that we have not given up. Keep getting on that scale, keep being mindful of what and how much goes in your mouth. Try to squeeze in those workouts. WE know how to do it - JUST DO IT! It's been a little over 4 months since my journey began. I want to make it a whole year. Tough months ahead with summer flings, "steak on the lake" boat trips, then the holidays - we really need to encourage each other to stay strong and true to our original journey.

C'mon - I'm begging here!

Food Journal

Well this IS my food journal from now on. So here we go with yesterday's train wreck.

1. 2 packets of cheez its
2. turkey whole wheat wrap with lettuce and fat free ranch
3. lo-fat yogurt cup

- doing good so far, then AHHHHHHH!

4. CHIPS AND QUESO
5. FRIED CHICKEN STRIPS WITH GRAVY
6. salad with fat free ranch on the side
7. cup o GREASY green beans
8. Mexican Martini

Oh my god. Somebody stop me. And then I didn't work out at all. I fell asleep on the patio in a chair when I got home. Shortly after, Pop Pop arrived and we went out to eat. I could have ordered better. I don't know why I didn't. There was a plethera of salad options and even non-fried chicken options. There is always water to drink instead of a martini. I hate what I have been doing to myself lately. And I know not blogging honestly about what I have been eating on a regular basis is bad.

Dear Diet,

I apologize for what I've put you through. I have been cheating on you regularly for a while now, as you know. You don't deserve this. You have given me so much and I have been so happy with you for a long time. We've had our differences. I have strayed and though sometimes that maybe you weren't "the one." But now I know you are. I don't need those cheesy, greasy foods anymore to make me happy. You are it for me. You are what has made me who I am today. All my greatest memories are with you. You make me want to be a better person. When I'm with you I feel beautiful. I am sorry for sneaking around and expecting you not to find out. Now that you have, I know I'll pay for it but I hope you'll forgive me.

Sincerely,

Whitney

PS: Mom GET BACK ON THE BLOG!

Ah haaa

I knew Leah would be a little Jillian for you. I did NOT know Leah was concentrating on her diet but that's good news. No eating at night. C'mon how many blogs have we written about Kitchen Closed?

How sweet that people commented on your beautiful daughters. We would not be beautiful if you didn't guilt us for everything we put in our mouths. So thanks Mom- for the genes and the jeans. haha. And if the other cousins were as afraid of the guilt, they'd be pretty I think.

I was semi-bad yesterday. I ate a brisket slider with mustard for dinner. I had half a turkey sandwich and some chicken soup for lunch and I had a few sliced strawberries for breakfast. Then i played softball on my company team which was super fun but not nearly the workout I was craving. So I went on a run for a few miles with the kids when I got home.

I was at 129 last night but 131 ish this morning. I'm confused. But I think I'll be good at 127-126 for the party. I think Linds and I are gonna do Jillian tonight but it's supposed to be our date night and I don't want to take too long on my workout. B will understand though. I wish I had the energy to get up and work out in the mornings before work. But I just don't function before 7. Does anyone? haha

Leah's pie party is this weekend. It was going to be Saturday but they changed it to Friday during CarlaMonster's party. So I can't go. I guess it's good to avoid pie temptation. Good luck with that Mop. I guess you will NOT be accompanying me to CMonster's afterall. It's okay though, I'll survive.

Special K cereal for breakfast today and hopefully another lovely root cellar tomato/cucumber salad for lunch. That thing was gooood.

Be good today!

And Leah where you at?

Ugh - It's Like Having My Own Jillian Now

Yes, Leah is back home for the summer. She made a very healthy dinner tonight of lettuce and a and a few, very few pieces of grilled chicken and a piece of toast. I was still hungry after my very lite dinner, so proceeded to have some string cheese, followed by a pudding cup and then I sneaked some yogurt and fruit. Jillian, I mean Leah, caught me, chastised my late night eating, lectured me, guilted me into swearing I would not eat anymore after 10 PM. Fine!

Actually, Leah will be a good influence. I needed that because I was slipping back into late night snacking. I'm off my target by 2 lbs. I wanted to be down 43 by Sunday. I'm only down to 41 lbs. Considering all the Margaritas, tacos, brisket and chips consumed this weekend, I'm doing OK. I did pass on the Cake (that was hard!) and I passed on a BIG breakfast and ate Oatmeal and Wheat toast while those around me raved about their pancakes, syrup, fried apples, biscuits and gravy.

I also hit the exercise trail pretty hard on Monday. I took Charlie for an hour walk/jog. My eating was good until the late night hours sucked me back into the Kitchen.

I bought a new journal that's small enough to easily carry in my purse. I'm recording all food again, even the late night encounters.

Whitney, you did look great at the party. I also had several people comment on how good you looked. Yes I was beaming when Grandma said, you have two beautiful daughters and I said well you have two beautiful granddaughters (ooops, I mean 5?) Ha! we know.

Keep the "bathing suit" motivation dangling like a carrot - you will be a knock out at the party. I can't imagine too many ladies getting in bathing suits next to you. Maybe after a few beers or IF they bring their own shots, they might work up enough nerve. It will probably be you, Brian and the kids slip'n and slide'n.

Remember this picture? Your waist in the party dressed looked almost as small. Keep up the Focus, motivation:

Jillian would KILL ME

Jillian would kill me if she knew about all I ate this weekend. I totally destroyed my diet efforts for two days straight. I got to 127 and then Saturday came. I ate everything in site and it was amazing. Then Sunday I ate all the leftovers in sight, equally amazing.

But today I'm back on focus because this Sat. is bathing suit with the beast. I gag at the thought alone. I'm going to be in a bikini in front of all B's family and all Brad's friends. I wonder what other girls there will be like... Hmmmm. I wonder if Brittney will even suit-up. I wish wish wish Brandice and Adam were still together. But thank GOD Leah's going to come with me. My rock. We'll kill in our bathing suits and Carla monster can just cringe. But only if we work out super hard.

Linds and I are starting Jillian again tonight. I brought a bag of strawberries and a bottled water to work. I'm going tanning/running when I get off, then to the gym for Jillian war zone. I'm scared because it's been so long but I'm looking forward to it.

Mom, how'd you do at the party? I hope everyone had fun in spite of the rain. C-Monster and her mother are the only things I was truly disappointed in that day. Other than that, great people make for great fun. And we have great friends and family.

Everyone kept telling me I look great. It made me feel really good. Pay off for the yummy foods I turned down. I think I'll keep this self esteem. People asked, "What's your secret? How'd you do it?" and it's so funny but the answer is always- Diet and exercise. It was really nice that people noticed though.

Leah gave me bathing suits to try on for this weekend. I'm not going to try them on till like Thursday though. I want to be buff and skinny before I do. It's pretty nerve wrecking.

I'm coming to visit y'all this weekend so we can work out then. Having Leah back home should be helpful I hope, for you both.

Are you at 45 lbs lost yet? I'm shooting for 125 this week. I have a bit of a set back after Sat./Sun. but it can be done. I just have to be even more strict than I was last week.

Back on the wagon. Shshshsh. Don't tell Jillian about my party weekend.

Age is No Excuse

Tonight, the Biggest Loser Winners proved that Age is Not an excuse anymore. The two winners were a 64 year old Grandfather and a 48 year old mom. First time two older contestants beat all the young contestants. The 64 year old lost 47.97% of his body weight and the 48 year old lost an amazing 54.47% of her body weight. It was astonishing to see the transformation. Helen started at 257 and now weighs 117 lbs. So much for old age = no metabolism. It inspired me to Treadmill tonight. I'm really going to miss that show. It was my real motivation to exercise. Now what? Bathing suit weather? Yep, that will do it!

I might add also the Jillian, yes our Jillian, was the trainer for ALL three finalists this season. I do feel a little sorry for Bob but Jillian has proved to be the more successful trainer. What is this, like 5 Biggest Loser Winners trained by Jillian!


Eating was good today. I'm shooting for 2 lb loss this week. So far so good.
I'm really going back to the basics. No late night snacking, keeping a journal, counting calories, portion control and exercise. I'm reading some of our older blogs from January and February - dang we were so inspiring and knowledgeable.

(The Turtle is back in the race)


Weather forecast for Saturday:
I'm still reading 20% chance of precipitation, 88 degrees high and 63 degrees low temperatures. That means an 80% chance that it won't rain. Think positive.

Stormy Weather

Oh no. I'm seeing a 30% chance of isolated storms and this little picture in the weather report. How sad. I really wanted the party to go off without a hitch. And watch, Carla's party will be sunny and perfect all day. What did I do to deserve scattered thunderstorms? Now I really hope we can get some onnings.... as if it really matters.

I didn't work out yesterday and I ate badly on Mother's Day. Yep, late night wings and ranch dressing. Dang it. But yesterday I ate really well. I had cereal with strawberries, a brocoli and turkey wrap with fat free ranch and fat free cheese, some grapes and a pickle. I'm back to 132 and falling. That's good. Must weigh 129-127 by Saturday. Crash diet anyone? Then next week I have to crash even harder and weight train like mad because Carla invested in a slip n' slide for her party so I will be in a swim suit in front of all B's family and Brad's friends. Bla. Leah, you comin'?


I will work out tonight for sure because I have the whole night off and we used yesterday to go see Star Trek. Awesome movie! Man Cap. Kirk is a stinkin' hottie.

I have so much cleaning to do, which will contribute to my workout. And I'm wanting to look small in pix on Saturday and around friends who haven't seen us in a while, so I'm afraid to eat much. I'm scared into a strict diet. Now I just need to work out these muscles a bit. No time for a workout on Friday I'll be way to busy husslin' around and getting ready. I'm a bit stressed about the whole thing.

Come rain or shine- I'm determined to have fun and be skinny!

Get back on track mom. Sorry about the CL delivery Sunday night. I hope you had a great Mother's Day. It didn't really feel like Mother's Day with the shopping and all. You never get anything for yourself. 40 more lbs right? Then we can shop for fun.

Have a great Monday/Tuesday.

And Leah no more excuses after your final today! You better be back in action.

LEAH - WHERE ARE YOU?????????????

Hey Girl - don't quit on us now... it takes two seconds to blog in between studying! We need you to stay with it - keep motivating us and you...

Mother's Day = Chocolate Covered Strawberries

Ok - so I gained two lbs over the weekend. It had to be the Chocolate Covered Strawberries or maybe the late night chicken wings and ranch dressing. It doesn't matter - I had a good Mother's Day - thank you girls!!! So today I ate an orange, string cheese, latte, and turkey sandwich. I was so exhausted tonight that I came home and crashed; took a 3 hour nap followed by a banana and some vanilla yogurt. I'm good till tomorrow.

Notice no exercise above? I'll think about that tomorrow; after all, tomorrow is another day - quote a favorite of mine...Weather forecast for San Marcos, Saturday, May 16: 20% chance of precipitation, cooling off a bit to a high temperature of 88 degrees.

Running

You're right. The grease stays with you. I'm just starting to feel a little de-toxed after all the greasy crap I took in last week. In the beginning of our lifestyle change I never would have eaten chips and salsa, tortillas, cheese, migas ... oh no. In those days I would let Brian eat it and ask him to describe it for me LOL. It was fun living through his eating habits.

My jog last night felt great. I ate pretty well, probably too much but low fat.

I had special K cereal for breakfast. Lunch, I cooked turkey wraps for me and B with fat free ranch, lettuce, broccoli, fat free cheese, fat free turkey, bell peppers and green chili peppers. It was de-lish. I sliced up some banana, grapes and a cheese stick for the sides. Then I had a 100 calorie pack for a snack later. Then for dinner, I ate another cheese stick, a lean cuisine and a handful of un-salted cashews. B had pizza at Blazer Tag ... I just imagined it.

I ran about 3 miles with the dogs- from our house to the stop sign on the way to school and back. I used my knee braces so it went pretty well. I still had to ice down the right knee. It's worse than the left one.

This morning I made veggie breakfast tacos with mushrooms, fat free cheese, 1 1/2 egg, bell peppers and onions with a glass of milk. Yum again. This was AFTER I woke up at 6:30 for a 3 mile run. For lunch I am having a cute little lunch-in-a-box. It comes with a turkey wrap, pretzels and a cheese stick all for 390 calories. I'm trying to eat more in the afternoons so I'll cool it at night. As we know, the darkness is my weakness. For some reason after I work out and when the street lights come on I just start wanting anything I can get my hands on to eat.

I'm working at the CL tonight which is also always an enormous temptation so I have to be super disciplined and not snack while I'm there. I am starting over after all. I have to pretend like the weight loss contest is back on. I suppose it is.

I wish Leah would join us again. I called her last night to work out with me but she couldn't because she was waiting for her pizza to arrive. Bla. I miss her support and dedication. It was nice having somebody down the road who was always up for a workout. Linds will be my buddy this summer when Leah's gone. But lately I have understood how you felt, mom, doing this all on your own. It's harder.

Wish me will-power on avoiding CL food. And I'll see you Saturday for a day of yard and house work :) I know you're excited. Skinny for the party! Skinny for the party! Skinny for the party!

What a Difference a Day Makes

I should have blogged last night. Last night I would have reported a great day. Stayed within 1100 calories, walked 3 1/2 miles - even inspired your Dad to walk with me. He said his knees and back were killing him so that will be the last time he's my walking partner. I called it our annual Walk..maybe May 2010 we'll walk together again- HA!

Whoa is my report for tonight! We went to Star Trek but before the movie (which was very entertaining btw) we decided to hit our ole hamburger joint from college days - Hut's Hamburgers. Then we decided, what the heck, let's order the usual "Wolfman Jack Burger and Onion Rings"

and what the heck, let's throw in some Fried Veggie thingies (that tasted like a soy roll- ugh). Although it was all I ate the entire day, the meal was chalked full of fried food - saturated fat on top of saturated fat. I feel greasy even now as I type. Like you said Whit, I just got back on the scale and said "Damn, tomorrow will be a Grapefruit, string cheese, Lean Cuisine, strawberries and yogurt day, topped off with a 2 mile walk/jog. Ok, now I got my thinking back on track before it's too late.

Did I mention the new Star Trek was really good! Can't wait for the next one and you know there will be a next...Young Captain Kirk was very handsome - blue eyes, thick lips....I'm not saying the "old" Captain Kirk was anything to laugh at, also handsome, but this one was a nice upgrade.

Starting Over

Starting over is right. I got up to 135 and I'm back to 134. I wanted to be at like 125 at this point because graduation is only a week away. It's miserable gaining weight after being so dead on for months in a row. But I'm feeling a bit lighter today because of my weigh in. And I thought about it. When I gain weight, it's because I'm not weighing on my scale. When I want to lose weight, I weigh religiously. I know that last week I was not weighing in like before and behold- I gained. Now for the last two days I've been watching the scale. That's the ticket. The high numbers scare me, so I become afraid to much out, as I should be. I'll continue to weigh often.

I went to the grocery store and re-stocked on healthy foods. It's difficult to keep up with a healthy diet in some ways: one because you must grocery shop regularly to keep your fresh healthy foods fresh and healthy. I got some more lettuce, jalapeno pickles, wheat wraps, fat free turkey, fat free cheese, dressing spritzers, fat free Italian, mushrooms, un-salted nuts, 100 cal snacks, sugar free puddin', skim milk, eggs, special K- you know the staples that I require to cook with instead of making excuses to go out to eat. I cooked lunch for Brian and I - a veggie and turkey wrap like the good ol' days. He loved it and wanted two because he was "starving." It was nice. Then I had a puddin' cup for desert. I'm back in the good girl mode.

Last night I raked up leaves in the back yard, picked up trash, cleaned the deck, planted extra flowers next to the porch, and stained the deck for the party. It looks so nice. Man that wood was thirsty. I didn't actually work out but I did sweat my butt of doing yard work. Then I did some ball crunches and tricep kick backs while I watched the Golden Girls before bed.

I'm getting excited about the party. MUST be skinny. MUST have a beautiful house. Sheesh. Stressful/expensive.

I'll stick to my good habits this time around. At least I didn't skyrocket to 165 this time. I caught it before it went too far. Thank God. Especially because B told me that he and his boo are going to hit the gym hard this summer and do a lot more cardio. Dang it. I need Brian to be less toned than me. Women have to work so much harder than men to be sexy and muscular. No fair. I thought I wanted B to live a healthy lifestyle with me but now I think- wait, he can't get in better shape than me. Nobody wants to feel like the flabby one in the relationship. That's why I would never date a skinny guy, because it would make me feel huge. I hope he gets fit but it just means I'll have to get extra fit. Whew. Even more pressure. I'm never at a loss for reasons to be in shape. +1 to the list.

Here was the article I got from Spark People today about your mother's dieting habits effecting you. Haha. How appropriate. If it weren't for my mother, I'd still be a blimpy. Thanks Mom!

http://caloriecount.about.com/moms-dieting-habits-b298333?utm_source=newsletter&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=newsletter_20090507&utm_term=continue1

Did you see our pix on FB?

So funny about Dad and Cappy. Always use the scary collar. And congrats on #42- next goal 50lbs! If I can get off Saturday night, we should go shopping for cute, coordinating outfits to wear for B's party. You down? Fo sho.

Still On The Journey!

I'm now 42 lbs down! It really is about being conscious of what you eat. I know you shouldn't obsess but at the same time you shouldn't close your mind to what you are eating until after you've eaten all the BAD foods- because then comes the REGRET. We all know about the "Pain of Regret"! So Whit, I'm glad your being positive - but did you read my last article about pretending like your starting all over, setting some goals again, writing in your journal again, etc. We know HOW to lose, but doing it are two different stories. It is such a huge self-discipline. If it were so easy, 70% of Americans would not be overweight. You girls are in the minority - pat yourself on the back and reach for healthy goals either maintaining, toning, building cardio and muscle strength, reaching your ultimate goal weight...

Your Dad woke up this morning moaning and groaning because his clothes were too tight. I said "you can either buy bigger clothes or take losing weight serious" - we'll see which direction he goes... Last night he wanted to reward Leah for all her studying so he buys Taco Bell and Ice Cream - OMG Leah didn't eat the ice cream - that was good! I had one Taco and about 125 calories of ice cream. I weighed this morning at 42 lbs down probably due to my 1 hour dog walks last night. I miss having dogs that can actually keep up for more than 10 minutes - poor Wueezy just can't hang anymore - she has the Want To, just not the Can Do.

This is how your Dad looked walking Captain (minus the hat) ;-))

Forgive Setbacks

I weighed 135 this morning. When I think it or say it out loud, I feel tears forming up in my eyes. I knew I was heavier. My mid section shows first. I didn't want to weigh this morning because I knew it would not be good. I could feel it. But, I forced myself to step on the scale and face the music.

This means that - in spite of the five K - in the last week I have gained 6 lbs. I know exactly where every ounce came from, too. I simply overate and bad bad foods. Then, my Spark People newsletter helped. It was about the 5% of weight-losers who actually keep it off. Here's what they do:

1. Make it public
2. Have fun with it
3. Forgive temporary setbacks
4. Make gradual changes
5. Pay attention to what they eat

I suppose my weight loss is pretty public. I do have fun with it. And I do pay attention to what I eat. But now, I need to forgive my setback and hop back into the correct mind frame. I ate a cup of pears and a cinnamon special K breakfast bar this morning. I'll have some leftover Cobb salad for lunch and I'll go for soup at dinner. Lindsey and I are working out together when I get off work. I need to stop thinking about my gain as negative and move on. So that's what I'm doing this week. I don't want to beat myself up. I want to think positively.

Mom, how'd you do on weigh in after the race? I had a great run. Loved it. Picture coming soon.