Tuesday Check In

Hello my ladies!

I just finished lunch with Mom at PF Changs where we each had some chicken lettuce wraps. No rice. No fried nonsense. But probably a bit too much soy sauce. Oh well.

I have decided 100 Calorie Snacks are the DEVIL. More than Brian, alcohol, eating out - I am tempted by the Cheez Its and chocolate cookies calling my name. When I finish one, I grab for another. And before you know it, a 100 Calorie snack turns into a 400 calorie snack. And it's not like they're the healthiest of snacks either. Jillian says to read the ingredients on bags of prepackaged foods and that it should help you not want to eat them. Nope. I don't care what they say, I still want to eat them. But I do see where she's coming from. Enriched flour and cheese cultures with soy lecithin don't sound like the best ingredients to be putting in my body.

I rose on the scale to 140. It was devastating. Luckily it was devastating to the point where I lept back into the saddle. I'm back to 135 and have eaten well today.

My knees have been screaming at me for the last few days, especially after workouts. Then yesterday just getting in and out of my car they hurt. It is like a stinging pain whenever I do a squatting motion. Even going up the stairs at the movies I felt the sting behind my knee caps. Ouch! I have to take it easy so I'm going to do a video or two today instead of running three miles straight. When I do need to kill on some cardio, I'll have to use an elliptical so not to jam my knees into the ground like I would with running and lunges. Jillian always says alternating punches are great cardio for people who have bad knees or feet, so I'll def. do a few of those.

I had a job interview today and my suit was bigger on me than ever before. Good news. I wish I had more money to buy clothes that fit, but I don't want to jinx myself by getting a smaller wardrobe because it seems like every time I have done that, my body rebels- in other words, I stop caring because I get too confident.

I still care. I'm still going to have a healthy dinner and great workout today. I still want to reach 125 lbs. I have about 10 to go. I want to look tiny for the Tea Party, good for Easter, good for Leah's BDay because I'm sure cameras will be around for all three. I also just found out another friend of mine is getting married and we've been invited to the wedding. So I must look little and fresh for that event. It really never ends. How did I survive before I cared? I'll tell you, with little confidence and not wanting to go places, by shopping for "miracle" shirts that made me look allusively small. Trickery. NO. I want to actually be small and let my shirts wear me :) not rely on them to make me look better.

There you go. More reasons. More goals. More confession. And I'll keep them coming because as long as I'm accountable to this blog, I'm going to stick with it. I'm going to reach my goal weight.

Mom- your excel weight loss chart was so great! I had no idea you were keeping such methodical records. Amazing! I hope I can help inspire you to reach each goal.

Mop- we have missed a few workouts together but I'm glad we're both still feeling the burn separately. Brian could NOT handle an entire round of Jillian workouts. He worked me out Sat and could barely make it through a few sets at a time when choosing the moves he wanted to do. I challenged him to do an entire Jillian workout and he said, "Fine." Now I'd like to see it really happen. See? We are stronger than the boys!