Tired

I was so ready to come home and work out after work yesterday but instead, I crashed. I mean I got on FB for like 10 minutes to check on our party RSVP list, watched a bit of Fox and went to take a nap. But before I knew it, it was 9:00, then it was 11:30 and Brian was home from his work party. The whole night was a sleepy blur. I couldn't even hold my head up. But today I'm more alert than the past two days in spite of the weather. I guess another good thing is that I didn't snack all night while B was gone because I was sleeping like a baby. I'm so disappointed in myself for what I ate yesterday- a fazoli's original. I knew it was bad for me but once it was in my hands I couldn't resist, or didn't want to. I ate the whole thing and then looked up the calories online after lunch - for one HALF of the sandwich it was 1130 calories... do the math. And I had breakfast and a snack earlier that day. So I ate like three days worth of calories yesterday. I'm so ashamed. The scale showed my weakness, too. I weighed 132 this morning. How depressing. But I wrote everything in my food journal with a sad face next to it. What's the point in the food journal if it says bad foods?

Today I must be more disciplined. Especially since the party is in just three (ish) weeks. There is no reason I wouldn't be able to get to 125-126 by that time as long as I keep my head on straight. Special K, a 100 calorie snack, smoothie, turkey and broccoli wrap. NO deterring from the plan. I must stay focused. Please - God - if you can hear me - DON'T let me eat bad anymore! Think anyone has ever prayed in a blog before? haha

On top of it all, I must work out tonight. And I must do both videos. There is no reason why I can't. No excuses. Brian will be at work and he's been helping out with household projects a lot lately which cuts my workload quite a bit. I will tan on my lunch break so I have plenty of time to hit the matt after work.

Mom- way to work up to the three mile point. You can do it, don't worry. Training will help. You have a few more days to perfect the system. Can we bring dogs on the run I wonder? My poor babies have been locked away for days now because of the weather and I have not had time with my new job to take them places like I used to. They are acting cooped up. I thought to myself yesterday about how terrible it would be to always see the inside of one building my entire life and never get to go out for exercise. Maybe I'll try to squeeze in some dog park time when the mud dries here.