VICTORY

It's not over but I must report my biggest milestone yet.

I WON THE WEIGHT LOSS CONTEST AT WORK!

That's right. I lost over 20lbs. And I weighed in with pants, socks, shoes, a belt, and accessories (minus earrings) on- and STILL I had lost 21 lbs. The scale read 144. I'll buy that because Donny said the scale weighs a little on the heavy side and because I usually don't weigh fully clothed. My theory is the smaller number - the better. So if a heavy-leaning weigh in with all my clothes on said 144, I'm gonna safely say I weigh more like 140. I started at 165 on my own scale and now it says 138-141 depending on the day. I hate math, lol. I earned $120.00 for my hard work and I'm using it to buy some clothes that fit! None of my jeans stay up anymore, so getting ready in the mornings has been so hard but for all new reasons that I LOVE.

Leah has been pushing me (as always) to work out. We are on Day 20 now, I believe. She's about to leave for the beach, which means we will have to work out separately. That will be a real challenge: staying motivated and trained consistently while my motivator/trainer is shaking her tiny butt in a bikini somewhere far away. Help! I feel alone! Lindsey to the rescue, I hope.

Today we have the day off and I think I'm gonna go to the rec because I have not been in so long. I'm going to try to run 5 miles and do some abs (my old routine).

Another success to report. My love life has been so great lately. I am (always have been) crazy about my bf these days. We have been going out on dates on the nights we both have off. Last night I was supposed to go to a party downtown and wear my cute new dress Leah helped me pick out, but the weather was terrible and my friend didn't even want to go that bad. Instead, I stayed home and visited with Allie for a couple of hours before she headed back to SA. Then Brian got home and once again, we went to Pluckers. I wore my smallest jeans and a low cut purple top that really showed of my tan. I felt so great, pretty. It has been nice lately because I have actually had the confidence to want to go out and meet people. I feel good about how I look and I think it rubs of on Brian. We sat at the bar. He stared at me and joked with me like we just met. It's was great! And we are both more comfortable with our bodies lately, so we touch more and kiss more in general. It's so nice. I never thought that would be one of my favorite changes through this process. I admit I had a drink at Pluckers- a Mexican Martini. And I know we're not supposed to reward ourselves with food, but I did anyway. I drank the whole stinkin' thing and loved it. And because I have not been drinking, my buzz chimed in quickly. Nice. More bang for the buck.

Where is everyone?! I feel alone on the blog and this is def. a time of weakness for me. I'm feeling like a winner, like the contest is over, Leah's leaving, I'm going to start working from home (right near the kitchen all day), the blog is slacking... I need some serious support at this point. Come BACK!

New goals: To fit into even smaller jeans, to lose 15 more lbs (or at least 10), to feel great in my bathing suit for summer, to approve of my body when getting into the tanning bed (a time when I judge all my flaws-haha), to go out more and take more pix that I want to post online and to see arm muscles especially on my triceps. It's not gonna be easy. But that's why I have you guys.