Damn it

Okay so I could just take the day off from the blog and bask in self loathing. Instead I'm confessing AGAIN on this blog. As always I was doing great during the day- eating healthy, great workout. Then I went nuts. I had too many servings of mixed nuts and they are so high in calories and fat. Then I went to dinner with Brian and his grandpa and ate cheese dipped potatoes. What the F was I thinking? And then I came home after and ate two more cracker packets. B even said that all the 100 calorie packets add up.

I'm so mad at myself. I can't believe I would get so far and then crush my hard work in three days of eating CL and snack snack snack. I even said my new goals when starting from the top would be to cut back on my snacking and dig into my diet.

So here we go again. I weighed myself... thus this depressing blog. No I'm not back in the 140s yet but I'm so damn close I nearly cried. I want to get back to 135 by the end of this week and then nose dive for the 120s all over again. Leah, Linds and I are picking back up on our Jillian workouts tonight and I have eaten healthy so far today. For some reason it's so easy to avoid food during daylight. Why? I don't get it? I also wrote down my foods and weight for the day in my journal. I'm going to be religous about keeping track of not only what I eat, but the calories in each item. Today I'm at about 345 calories so far... Oh God I just realized it's only noon. I think tonight I'll cook the black bean and fat free cheese "nachos" for dinner for us. I hope they're good. Maybe I'll saute some peppers and onions and call them fajita nachos? Then I'll at least feel like I'm eating bad.

I think after working really hard on some actual PR and Web design today with no interruptions, I will do a crazy amount of cardio before our Jillian workout.

Goodluck on your Tuesday ladies. Please don't let the snacky monster get me again. He's evil.